Wow….havent bee on here in a while – I really just need a bit of a vent.
I currently spend a majority of my time thinking —- why haven’t I found someone who likes me. Is there something wrong with me? What is my future boyfriend doing right now? Do I know him?
The answer I get back from everyone is…”Your time will come.” But seriously everyone shut the fuck up…you all have partners, someone to talk to at random hours of the night, someone that tells you they love you, someone to fuck, you just have someone. Yet here I am feeling as though I’m alone most of the time — I don’t with my family or anyone I would consider a close friend, mostly people that I actually hate. You work past them and they go hide in their rooms as if they’re terified of human interactions with myself. I live in a shit house full of shit people. All of my other friends only contact me if I message them first – never am I asked ‘hey want to come over?’, “hey want to go to the movies?’, ‘hey are you ok?’ It’s always me doing the effort, oh Terence is big enough and strong enough to look after himself he doesn’t need any support let’s just drown him with our issues and look to him for help but never see if he needs a hand. It’s just getting rather frustrating. Oh and the one friend I did live with just moved out to live with another friend….mmmm cheers cunt…thanks..
I am lonely. I am so lonely. And it sucks it really does, to just think maybe if I disappeared right now for just a week, would anyone notice? Would anyone actually give a shit?
